Happy belated Halloween!

I know, I'm really REALLY bad with updates... I'm considering changing to Wordpress and have to figure out how to transfer this blog to the new one as best as possible.

Anyway, so yesterday was Halloween, and there were lots of trick or treating around the neighborhood, so much so that the candy that we had went out. So I actually had to say no to a lot of kids haha. I felt really bad about it but I was helpless. Nothing I can do about it.

I also carved a pumpkin and I think it was pretty successful :D

Creativeness

Me and Matthew was playing with play dough the other day and this was one of the results that I made...it's supposed to be Moby Dick lol

I was going to take a photo of Matthews snowman too but he crushed it right before I was able to snap a shot.

"Funny pictures"

Matthew playing with my iPad. He loves this app! He's so cute, I'm so going to miss him so much when I go back to Sweden... <3

Hmm

I don't get it why children don't want to brush their teeth...

Canmore

Here is a picture of the view from the house, not bad at all eh? So beautiful :)

Autumn

Can't believe it's autumn/fall already. I do like this season but I don't like the cold, it's very beautiful and all but like I said I really don't like the cold or the rain. I would rather have the warmth than the rain any day!

Monday September 3rd birthday!

Today is Matthews cousins birthday! I don't know if I've told you guys about her but her name is Bridgett and she's turning 4 years old! Gosh she's getting so big!

She's really cute and sweet. Anyway we went to her birthday bash and Matthew had so
Much fun! And of course it was really nice for the rest of us too haha.

Who doesn't like a party? ;)

Saturday september 1st

It's the long weekend here in Canada and we are going to Canmore to visit my host mothers' mother today. We will be there until Monday morning.

It's so beautiful over there it's insane!
And I can't get it that it's like only 45 minutes from Calgary!

Will write more and post a picture so you guys are able to see it, not that it will make it justice with the iPad camera or anything but still; you guys can get an idea of how beautiful it is.

Should I or should I not?

Talked to my dad the other day about pilot school and how I should approach it.

My take in it all was to take a loan and just take the classes and get it all over with, but my dad said that maybe I should become a flight attendant first and during that time buy all the necessary books for flight school and read it and prepare. But that I should work as a flight attendant so I could get a feeling if I liked it or not?

I don't know if my way or dads suggestion would've better... I'm so confused whenever I'm thinking about my future, the more I think about it the more confused I get.

I really don't know what to do, I know what I want to be but how to get there is a whole another thing, someone else having that problem? Or is it just me?

Time flies so fast sometimes

I know I said in the last post that this is a 'slow moving job' kind of thing. But gosh the time does fly by! I've now been here for like 6months and it's only 5months left!!!!

I don't know how to feel about that to be honest, I don't really want to leave this wonderful family, but on the other side, I can't wait to start my life 'up' again. This au pair job is a very nice pause button.

And I do recommend it to everyone who wants to take a short break from their normal life.

It's very rewarding and you learn a lot about yourself and what you are able to handle and what you're are not able to handle. You learn to take responsibilities over your own life as well as another(s). And also you get a second family as well!

And all the new friends that you'll get! Yes, this year in Canada is one of the better years of my life :) and I don't regret a thing :)

I thought I would never hit that stage...

Well it finally happened! I got home sick today, gosh. I missed everything about home, everything!

I don't get it because I've been here in Canada for almost 6months now and I've never really felt homesick before.

But today...I don't know what happened. I guess it finally hit me that I was gone or something, I don't know haha. I must be really slow if it takes 6months for me to realize that I've been gone from home ;)

Haha it's so weird. Maybe I got homesick because I let myself think about home for more than 5minutes...?

But in some weird and twisted way (not really) I want to continue with my life, I want to go back to school and finish it and then start pilot school and finally start living my dream life ;)

Don't get me wrong, I love this au pair job and the family are awesome (love em so much) but its kind of a stand-still thing. I'm moving slowly forward when I really want to go in a very fast pace if you know what I mean.

See the positive in it...

A lot of stuff have been happening here, and I'm Sick and tired of it.

There gotta be changes here, and I have to be the one making them.

And if it doesn't get better, I guess I'll have to talk.

But there's these simple but small things and yet they don't do it/get it and I'll have to do it all by myself.

Ergh, frustrated! Just talked to my family and they said to see it on the 'positive side' how in the world am I going to do that when I'm
Pissed off?!

It's not like I can just turn my feelings off...

Ps. Why is that whenever I take a photo with my iPad, it changes the picture. Like if I'm turning left on the picture and take it, the result is shown as if I've taken it turning right... Stupid shit lol

Weird!

So, just logged into my google account so change my profile and guess what it shows?
-nothing! I obviously don't have a blog there....hmm I wonder why? And I've tried to fix it by giving my email and such but nothing either. It's so weird.

But I have a headache at the moment so I'm not going to try to fix it anymore. It's not like it's super important or anything but it just pisses med off!

I dream big and I dream loud, but is it just a dream?

You could say that all my thoughts are way up above the clouds. I want to be a pilot one day, and I've been checking the schools in Canada and they seems promising. The only downfall is that it's so expensive. But it gotta be worth it right?

Or should I wait a couple of years and work as a cabin crew on an airline and see if I really like it?!

Of course I'll like it, I love traveling. And I'm willing to sacrifice whatever (whitin reason of course lol)

I'm afraid that if I get the money for the pilot school that I will mess it up somehow, like I will fail getting the licenses and all of that. Or if I do get the licenses somehow that I won't get a job and it will just spiral downwards from there, putting me into a deep whole filled with debt?!

Am I too afraid to try? But I so want to be a pilot! What to do, what to do?

Wanna change rooms.

I'm trying to convince mom and dad to change our garage/playroom to my bedroom. That would be totally awesome!

I'm going to put up some pictures but don't mind the messy things, we are renovating our kitchen so they've stuffed the garage and my room with lots of stuff... Haha so messy.

The room with the jukebox is the garage/playroom that I want to change to my bedroom. I don't know if you are able to see it but it's so much bigger than my own bedroom. And I want it to be mine! Haha

Oh no, not the puzzle.

Haha M was helping me do his laundry just a second before and now he accidentally pushed his alphabetic puzzle down the table... "oh noooo, not the puzzle"... Haha drama queen (king) or what? So cute

M is having fun!

I just love this guy! Haha so cute! Check out his socks, I'm slowly bit by bit turning him into a swede xD

Thursday

Matthew and I are home, and someone, Im not gonna say the name ;) is a little bit tired today. Grumpy. But now we're watching some cartoon before we're going to make pancake!!

Let's hope that will cheer someone up :)

Calgary... And a lot of babbling

Yesterday it was 20degrees and sunny now it's thunderstorm outside. Calgary weather is just super sometimes haha.

Sitting atm and looking outside, just showered and have no makeup. Tired. Yawn.

Finally a sunny day!

It's 20 degrees outside and it's super, me Matthew and Bridget were just out walking to the park and now we're outside drinking juice and just playing in the garden!